Maybe it’s because it happened to fall on one of the busiest days of my whole school life. Or because this busy day happened to come right after a very late night which in turn made me very tired. Maybe because today feels pretty much like it has every other day for the last year. Or because my super busy day hasn’t really ended because I have two final papers to write. Or because I’m so tired but busy that I feel like I can’t even think straight on any given day.
I miss you every day Erik. Sometimes I think I should have acted a little more needy so that you had to stay around to help me. The boys still talk about how you used to throw them on the bed. And that one time you tried to throw me and I fell off (they still think it’s so funny). And Milo loves to bring up how he has green eyes just like you. And Mason is trying his hardest to fill your shoes (and I see you in him almost every day). Always opening my door, unbuckling my seatbelt, reminding me to lock the car. And don’t worry, they both tell me I look pretty and that they love me all the time.
Alright, for someone who didn’t have anything to say, I sure can say a lot. I’ll stop now. Because otherwise I could go on for quite some time, and no one really wants that.
And just so you know, I can only do this because I don’t do anything alone. Thank you for your help. Everyone.
ps. A few people have been wondering, so – after a few problems and a lot of waiting, the headstone is finally here. Not exactly what I had envisioned, but that’s what I get for being a perfectionist.