So here’s the deal, like it or not.
I have a really hard time blogging anything not happy. Not that my posts are always happy – but sometimes I just want to post about how my life sucks. Then I worry that I’m going to have to hear comments about how sorry people are that I think my life sucks. I don’t like comments. I know that my life is maybe not as I wish it would be, but I also know there’s a lot of positive things about my life. I mostly try to focus on the positive, but sometimes I have days that just make it hard. So you know what I do? I read one of my favorite blogs, Have Joy (yes Nikki it’s true) and I feel better. Not because it makes me see the positive (which it can) but because I realize that I’m not the only one who has the feelings I do. Honestly I want to copy and paste her blogs and post them as mine all the time. I read them and wish I could post about crappy days in my life and not worry about what anyone’s going to say to me.
But I have a hard time doing it. So I try to skip over everything sad and stressful and upsetting and just post funny and random and crazy instead. And you know what – tonight I read Have Joy and thought, I want to be like Nikki when I grow up. I want to post what I’m thinking as I’m thinking it. I want to post when it’s funny and sad and random and stressful. So…
[insert stressed out upsetting thoughts here]
I’m sorry. I have them. I even started typing them. Then I deleted them. Baby steps people. Hey, at least now you know you can semi know what I’m sometimes thinking by reading someone else’s blog. That’s a plus right?